Shame

Hi guys, thank you for always being so supportive and never fail to make me relief with all your kind messages. It helps me alot by gaining happy, stable emotions throughout. Though i still have yet to recover from my disorders. But with all these positive vibes around me, i'm sure i'll be well soon enough. Really thankful and blessed. Thank you again.

So for today's story is about shame. I guess you guys know what exactly the meaning is right? good. Shame is something not to be proud of. Shame is nothing beautiful to potrait on the faces of humans. Because shame is part of the feelings where you show you inner self from within. Why isit so hard for people to know that shame is a one kind of subject that is not meant to be played around with? Why is it so hard for people to understand what others had gone through? When they already gave you the most simplest of sentences for you to understand. Is that too hard? And is that simple word "sorry" is hard for you to cough it out from your mouth?

I wonder why people still have the guts to pick on every of the flaws on each and everyone's personality and throw it at their faces so hard till it cracks like a broken window. How does it feel being the one who have the self-confidence to pick up that ugly stone and be throwing on individual's black dark shadow? Good enough for you till you can feel the satisfaction?

Why shadow? Because its every person "second" self. Shadow will follow you everywhere whenever there's light. It'll never fade out unless you go into the dark with them and the fact that it is stuck to your body for the rest of your life, just fucking sucks.

so it goes the same for every person's view of flaws. It's like a shadow. They put on the best smile they can ever show to the world, and making people wonder how can they be that much happy as possible. But what you don't know is that, sadly, beneath that cover, lies a thousands and millions of flaws you don't wanna end up seeing. Only one-self knows the best from their own and nothing can erase their view from seeing it. Its from their own point of view.

What is kept between you yourself, will always be what you see between you and your mirror. A reflection. Trust me, you don't know what you're dealing with the inside of someone. Someone who has so many flaws and insecurities which just makes them feel less of themselves and it'll never change. It is really hard and at the same time, tiring. Its tiring because its something that keeps on repeating. Take it as a phobia. I'm sure some of you souls has that one small phobia in you which easily triggers you if people tend to approach it in the wrong way.

So don't ever put that and use it to throw shame at the people who has it. Because its really a hell hole for some of them to go through. It keeps haunting them over and over again. It keeps disturbing their mind and heart. For some, it'll lead them into tears. Because of their social anxiety stress added on to their shame. They'll keep thinking of the bad consequences and negativity will never leave their minds. They'll be silent for quite some time and when people asks them what happen, they still tend to shut themselves out. And that some people, includes me.

So to the people out there, whoever reads this, please never shame others over their smallest of things, that they do. Because you'll never know what they are going through. And they DO have their own reasons why that did that or maybe they make a fool out of themselves. Its just that they dont make it obvious or make everyone notice it as to why. There will always be reasons behind every actions. It can be good, it can be bad. It can be easy, it can be difficult. You may just never know. Please don't be that kind of person where you'll tend to make others feel less of themselves because its just so mean. You may not understand how it feels for them to go through all that. You may not understand. But thats okay. In fact, all you can do is to be kind to others and feel how others would feel if that happens to you. Remember, you are handling with a person's feeling. You are handling their inner emotions. You are handling their mindset whenever you get into a conversation with them. You are handling their fears deep inside in which you may not know behind that precious smile; that they shine on themselves for others to see. To not let others know the true story behind those happy faces in their soul.

I love you all so much. Be kind to others and always be thankful to people who has always been there for you. Never leave them aside and never let them follow their shadows... alone. Sometimes, a shadow needs company, to share, to mix and understand each other darkness, walk together till the end.... till you find the light, till you find that true happiness.