Empty Soul

Alot of people are feeling lonely and sometimes and at the very worst of times, feel damn empty. Some people say that its because of isolation and they choose to distance self from others just so they won't hurt others. Or maybe not to hurt their own feelings. I mean obviously they are not the only ones who felt this way before. I do too.

Each people have different type of personalities in different situations. Like when they are at home, or in school. It includes when they are with their group of friends, when they're alone, with their loved ones, or even when they're with that one crazy buddy. For example, I've observe some particular people in my life. And yes, I tried to watch every step of them at every different point of situations. Just like I've mentioned above. I know you guys might be saying stuffs like;

"why do you observe people so much more than your own life? why do you even choose to do it? why waste your time doing stupid stuffs like this? you should be focusing more on your life and start making your own decisions now before its too late. i don't even understand the way of your sayings literally"

Other people be commenting shits like "you got a bunch of people around you but yet you say that you're lonely. attention-seeker much? eww you mixed around with them? why? they suck to the max, you shouldn't even bother to be close with them. Why are you always seem to be so depressed? Smile more." Enough.

You guys need to understand one thing. You're not going through shits like what they did. You don't know how they perceive stuffs. You don't even know what their mentality is like. So don't come up to them to stop and be telling them the opposite stuffs of what they SHOULD do.

For some its hard. Because some people keep so many things to themself in which no one knows about. They keep because they already knew that you wouldn't understand their situation. And they don't tell because they find it that its the best solution to everything. Because they find that its better for them. For the best. Like some others said; sometimes its best to keep it when you can't even understand yourself.

I really love the idea of how people always trust me and open up ther secrets or share talks with me because one thing, i know that they trust me. but most importantly, they shared because i can learn new things from them. It does feels good to listen at times. Because there are days where you will definitely experience parts of life when others had it first. Here's what; there are days where people just had their moments of being so fucked up apparently for no reason. YES. There are such things. My point of view, "no reason" is just another excuse. Because there IS something behind every "ok" & "i'm fine" mostly. Everybody had their moments. You just had to understand them. Don't force it :)

You may see them having TONS of friends, smile and laugh here and there. But at the edge, they be like "no one can understand me" "im lonely" or whatever kinds of way that indirectly meant "alone". Hey, you got to understand. Having lots of friends does not necessarily equate to guarantees in which friends will be there for you or they wanna be friends for real all day all night. By now, obviously you should know that there are people being two-side bitches, backstabber and all that stuffs. Not ALL people that you can trust. You trusting a person 100% is like putting your goddamn life at risk. Really. Truth. Its really hard for people to find true friends now. Lets be real hun.

Definitely, people will be jealous or upset that others have a sweet life like they have everything we could ever have. having friends, money, things that they could do to make them go far its like a complete life to set. But hey, if you're one of those, be thankful and blessed. Not everyone has that gift you're having. Appreciate it before its gone. But most importantly, be humble always. Never raise yourself high above others cause no one is greater than you. We are all the same, living the same purpose in life, to do good and well in and out. All for the best. Never bring others down. Simple way to say the reason; it hurts and it won't bring you any benefits in the aftermath. 

When you wanna be there for someone, always be sincere about it. Never take it as an advantage and to expect something in return. You be there when you wanna be there. Have the right intentions. Don't misuse them. Be humble and sincere when you're giving the hand. Practice that everyday, and all is well. When people step on your head, don't do it back. Just watch and relax. Live your life the way you want it to be. Nothing is complicated. The choice is on you who wanna make it difficult or easy. If you have that kind of friends who you know that they are in need of your presence, be there. Trust me, it'll mean alot for the person himself. Let them be the way they want it to be. But never ISOLATE them when you know that they NEED you. 

Thank you for taking your time to read this! I'm thankful and blessed. Have a great holiday ahead!! xx

Love,

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