Self-Harm [Part I]
Self-harm.
I bet your very first thought is like "Only stupid people does that" or "what the fuck, out of all this?" Its pretty simple. Self-harm can only be understandable by some certain people. Do I have to tell you what type of people are they? Hah. At the very first thought of yours, yes it might be stupid. Pretty stupid enough to hurt yourself with all these dangerous small things like; blades or penknife etc.. Like what for right? We can do other better things to ease and calm yourself down and be happy. Yeah true. There are better ways to do so. But what if it comes to a point of your life where all possible troubles, sadness, pain, anger, depression comes together all in one shot and hit you right in the head? Well some people's mentality can be very different. Like they can handle it well and not worrying too much about it. And that's good. I respect that kind of people. I can say that they are the kind of people who has alot of confidence, has a happy life background and mentally/emotionally ready. Who can take care of their own. Independent enough.
But what about to those who has low self-esteem? has alot of background problems? lack of love? lack of happiness? everything? What if they don't have all those things you people have right now? Who feels alot more insecure about every single thing surrounding them? Can you even feel them? ''No I can't?'' ''I don't fucking understand these type of people'' and maybe ''Go and find better things to do'' Tell you what:
Every slits, has a reason. Every blood, has its pain. Every flashbacks, has its story.
But what about to those who has low self-esteem? has alot of background problems? lack of love? lack of happiness? everything? What if they don't have all those things you people have right now? Who feels alot more insecure about every single thing surrounding them? Can you even feel them? ''No I can't?'' ''I don't fucking understand these type of people'' and maybe ''Go and find better things to do'' Tell you what:
Every slits, has a reason. Every blood, has its pain. Every flashbacks, has its story.
Some of you people just go around and tell off to those who self-harm themselves with; '' you're so stupid to do that'' // '' You're so weak'' // ''What the hell you think you're doing to yourself?'' // ''Are you stupid or are you dumb?'' // ''What the fuck'' // ''Where's your brain? In your ass?'' // "I don't want to see you doing this stupid stuffs like this okay?''
And to only realize, most of the words used is "stupid". Or even better, some people can go around and spread "rumors" and "trend" that particular person just because he/she does self-harm. And I wonder; why? why do that? Is it funny? Is it some kind of theatrical amusement for you? Yes although there are some people out there, young children of these generations nowadays post of themselves cutting their wrist till they lie down on the floor full of blood.
And to only realize, most of the words used is "stupid". Or even better, some people can go around and spread "rumors" and "trend" that particular person just because he/she does self-harm. And I wonder; why? why do that? Is it funny? Is it some kind of theatrical amusement for you? Yes although there are some people out there, young children of these generations nowadays post of themselves cutting their wrist till they lie down on the floor full of blood.
Making the caption very obnoxious, like ''god save me from this torture'' etc.. Sometimes they went overboard by doing that and its funny. I laughed at these type of people before I even get to feel it on my own. And to think it back, when its my turn getting it, it's not easy and it's not fun to get being laughed at.
You may now think that its a waste of their time to do that kind of shits. You may think that its fun to laughed on them. You may think that they're just out of their mind. Crazy. But no. Don't. And you'd probably had seen alot of quotes sayings like "People cry not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long" and those types like "i'm tired" quotes. Its true. I've study people's feelings and reactions. Not saying that I really study study. But more or less like... observe different type of people. In my opinion, these souls are really the strongest people alive to be holding on to their sorrows and pains that has taken over them slowly. Yet, to them, the only thing that can solve and ease their mind is to only cut, or take pills.
You may now think that its a waste of their time to do that kind of shits. You may think that its fun to laughed on them. You may think that they're just out of their mind. Crazy. But no. Don't. And you'd probably had seen alot of quotes sayings like "People cry not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long" and those types like "i'm tired" quotes. Its true. I've study people's feelings and reactions. Not saying that I really study study. But more or less like... observe different type of people. In my opinion, these souls are really the strongest people alive to be holding on to their sorrows and pains that has taken over them slowly. Yet, to them, the only thing that can solve and ease their mind is to only cut, or take pills.
Killing themselves by taking in so many cigarettes in one day. Anyways that they can find to kill themselves just so that their pain won't be in their soul. They would do anything to take that pain away. They do these because the pain that they're causing to themselves is an "exchange" term of their "heartaches" // "hurt"
Those heartaches gradually transferred straight to the places they self-harm on. Like for example; arms. To them, once they had slits, the pain magically goes away. They had to do it until they can see blood or at least a scar on their hands and then they'll be fine afterwards. Only for a moment. At the period of time. The ease isn't gonna be prolonged. It'll eventually come back. Sooner or later.
Those heartaches gradually transferred straight to the places they self-harm on. Like for example; arms. To them, once they had slits, the pain magically goes away. They had to do it until they can see blood or at least a scar on their hands and then they'll be fine afterwards. Only for a moment. At the period of time. The ease isn't gonna be prolonged. It'll eventually come back. Sooner or later.
But don't be that stupid to demoralize them for doing what they love to do. What if it's something that you love to do that helps you to keep calm. Even though its never stupid in general. And there's people out there judging and criticizing you down. Would you like that? I bet not. Its not that they're narrow minded and stupid enough to think. Its because their mind set has been suicidal enough for them to live through. All they ever thought of is to kill themselves slowly. They never ask for more. They don't wanna complain.
Because complaining is too much to ask for. Because for them, whatever they do, there will always be people judging them. To pin them down. To make them fall hard. There will always be people who give bad remarks about whatever single thing they do. So to cut the story short, suicidal thoughts just take over them. Not to attract attention from people. Some people look like they do. They do these because they need people to care for them. They lack of love and care. To me that's the reason though. They just want someone to care about them because they have been caring alot for alot of people for too long. And no one would even got the time or find time to do the same for them. So don't blame them if they asked too much of your attention. Sometimes you people just don't even bother at all. How sad.
But whatever it is, to those who is under pain and depressed, I pray for you all to keep staying strong as ever as days goes by. Be strong and have faith in yourself. Never give up because you might never know, one day, when you're just at the point of giving up, you might just lose out the most precious little things in your life. Be thankful of every smallest little things. Cos one day, when you look back, it'll be one of the most biggest things that has changed you. Remember that.
But whatever it is, to those who is under pain and depressed, I pray for you all to keep staying strong as ever as days goes by. Be strong and have faith in yourself. Never give up because you might never know, one day, when you're just at the point of giving up, you might just lose out the most precious little things in your life. Be thankful of every smallest little things. Cos one day, when you look back, it'll be one of the most biggest things that has changed you. Remember that.
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