Little Things Matter
Have you ever felt like if you ever did mean anything in this world? To someone? Or anything?
Ever looked around yourself, your space, your circles, your life in silence. Has anybody been truly there? Who has been there for you through the most toughest of times? Who hasn't? Has everything been enough for you? Am I content with life? With the way it is right now?
You see... At the end of the day, you'll find yourself all alone. Every morning you wake up, every night before you sleep, you think about the person you truly care for the most. Or at least thinking about how your day went by. Was it smooth? Was it tough to go through? Hold on... You're slowly holding the pain, the struggles, the madness in you.
Sometimes, we all get into that situation where we don't want to experience the struggles anymore. But then again, what's ease without pain? What is happiness without sadness? What is reward without challenge?
Its definitely hard to go through tough times. Its always good to remember that behind every struggles comes with a good outcome at the end of the line. It will hurt you to that extent where you don't feel like talking to anyone. You just shut down every walls you have that is open to the world. Close the doors for people to reach to you. Talk to you. Have a good maintained relationship. How many of you feel that way some times?
Here is how I see the world now.
At the end of the day, you are just gonna be alone. What you think, what you feel, what you have; alone. Sure, we are all aware that every one of us has friends. Even if you don't, you will still have at least one. But let me tell you that it is okay to be alone. It's okay. I'm pretty sure there was that one point of time where we all WILL be alone. Be it you have recently lost someone you love, you lost your friends, lose contact with them or just simply don't talk to anyone, it's okay. We all have those days and moments where we all just tend to just shut everyone out in our life. OR having people to shut us out from THEIR life. The only thing that I can tell you, is that it happens. It happens.
Especially when you're just feeling very very shitty. Because someone that means a lot to you just scarred your heart and it tore you into pieces that it actually stings your heart, your chest. You know that feeling right? And sometimes when that happens, you actually would want someone to cheer you up a little bit or at least having someone for you to share and pour your heart out to. The very least rant and having someone to listen to your pain. But, you know what happens?
Nobody's there.
Nobody is there to listen, to be by your side, to at least have an appearance to in front of you. Nobody is willing to listen, to have an ACTUAL conversation. A serious one. One with TRUE feelings & talk. Any one of them there you can list down on who? hmm. Any one of them that you can think of that is willing to give you a fucking straight up truth and advice to your face just to make sure you are okay at the end of the day? To make you realize that you are worth so much more. Any?
Sucks. To keep in all of your bottled feelings inside, eating the soul out of you. To cry to yourself at night before you go to sleep. Making you wonder if it all makes any senses to you feeling all the sorts of shits in your mind. And as days go by, you become more and more quiet and silent with your true feelings and options. You became more aware on everything. You became anxious on everything. It's like you keep telling yourself; every little things matter.
Especially when you're just feeling very very shitty. Because someone that means a lot to you just scarred your heart and it tore you into pieces that it actually stings your heart, your chest. You know that feeling right? And sometimes when that happens, you actually would want someone to cheer you up a little bit or at least having someone for you to share and pour your heart out to. The very least rant and having someone to listen to your pain. But, you know what happens?
Nobody's there.
Nobody is there to listen, to be by your side, to at least have an appearance to in front of you. Nobody is willing to listen, to have an ACTUAL conversation. A serious one. One with TRUE feelings & talk. Any one of them there you can list down on who? hmm. Any one of them that you can think of that is willing to give you a fucking straight up truth and advice to your face just to make sure you are okay at the end of the day? To make you realize that you are worth so much more. Any?
Sucks. To keep in all of your bottled feelings inside, eating the soul out of you. To cry to yourself at night before you go to sleep. Making you wonder if it all makes any senses to you feeling all the sorts of shits in your mind. And as days go by, you become more and more quiet and silent with your true feelings and options. You became more aware on everything. You became anxious on everything. It's like you keep telling yourself; every little things matter.
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